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it’s funny how such small things can affect your decision making so greatly. i watched death parade. it’s an anime, ofc, about a place where ppl go, after they’ve died, to get judged if their soul is sent to there were two scenes about suicide. one, where a man killed himself because he basically saw his life as meaningless, worthless. the other one was a woman, who didn’t see herself worthy of life. she loved ice skating, but broke her leg which meant she could never skate after they had been sent to the judging place, they realised how loved they were. the man’s stepmother’s (?) biggest wish was, that the man would some day call the step mum by “mum”. he never called her mum. he the woman’s mum was ashamed of herself, of not being able to see her own daughter felt. she sobbed on her grave. it made me think. maybe i do have someone who would care if i killed myself. maybe i still have a meaning. maybe, just maybe i am worthy of but, maybe my family and friends’ lives would be easier. i’m gonna die, but they’re going to get over it. i don’t know what happens after death. void? heaven? hell? reincarnation? i could find out. i could easily do it, but something is holding me back.