Ohnevermindanyways.tumblr.com Website Review

> has it gone for good > or is it coming back around? > audre lorde saying “what woman here is so enamored of her own > oppression that she cannot see her heel print upon another woman’s there it is again. burrowing it’s way into my subconscious. > i cant wait to get a boyfriend, im all prepared. i punched some > holes in the lid of this jar and i put some gras* and a twig in it i feel very lucky. happiness has always felt out of reach. something i didn’t deserve, something i wasn’t able to accept with people who this is the first christmas where my heart felt full. where i didn’t feel lonely. where i didn’t feel like i was missing out on i spent hours with my little sister tonight. she’s been angry that i’ve left. that i grew up. that i barely came home. sometimes i feel like i barely know her. other times i see the struggles she’s going through. see the root of my own trauma. i told her tonight that i cannot be her mother anymore. she accepted me as a friend. we both left with healing and on good terms. i’m starting to set boundaries with people who your supposed to be able to trust. i sit her next to the person i believe to be the best love i’ve ever known. my best friend. my partner. my companion. we’re watching he’s periodically taking breaking to seal the present for his 4 year old that he’s been working on nonstop for the past couple of months. we laugh. he snuggles me, and at the end of all of this i know tomorrow is a new day, and i am excited. consistently. for the first time in my life. i’m okay, i’m better then okay. i am loved for her i am, and covered in furry an*mals. tomorrow there will be presents opened to will make a tiny human who i love with my whole heart very happy, and the most beautiful person i